When I was younger, the holidays were the best time of the year for me! I didn’t have to get my hopes up for an amazing Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years because I knew that I was gonna get one.
But, since I’ve grown older… since my grandma passed away… since my dad left… and since my grandpa moved, it’s all be so different.
And it makes me sad. Extremely sad! Mostly because my siblings will never get what I had.
My mom can try as hard as she can and I’ll help as much as possible, but they’ll just never experience the holidays I’m used to.
When I was younger, Thanksgiving was HUGE! The day before, I’d help my mom, aunt, and grandma make the traditional stuffing. The next day, I’d go to the Thanksgiving parade with my dad and grandpa while everyone else stayed home to cook an amazing dinner. We’d come home and I’d watch the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade until it was time to eat. There was always the argument I gave my parents over having to sit at the kid’s table, but after I was reminded about pumpkin pie, I was done with that.
That was my Thanksgiving! Now, no one ever wants to help with the stuffing (apparently, it’s “too hard”) or join me for the parade. The parade on TV just isn’t as exciting anymore and now, I’m the one helping cook dinner since it’s just me and my mom and it’s so different.
Don’t even get me started on Christmas…
Christmas in our house used to be so much fun. When I was little, Santa was real!
I believed until I was 12. Taking photos with Santa was a BIG DEAL! My sibs, they could care less. Gbaby stopped believing at age 5. Before, my mom & aunt would stay up all night Christmas Eve and wrap the presents so that we could be surprised Christmas morning with tons of presents under the tree. Now, we wrap weeks before and gifts sit under the tree for a while. Not as fun. We used to drive around the city the week of to see the lights and attended the Holiday Lights Parade (when I wasn’t actually in the parade).
I’ve been dying to do cute things with the kids like crafts and a fun advent calendar, but they just say it’s dumb and boring. Nobody here even wants to help decorate the tree or put up the lights outside. I’m hoping as the baby grows older, I’ll be able to do some of these things with him, like Elf on the Shelf. I hope I can change the holidays for him, to make them more like what I had.
It’s so sad that the holidays aren’t the same. They just feel like any other day now.
I want my traditions back!