Early spring, I made the decision to go back to school… I was pumped and excited and ready to take it head on. I would be going to orientation mid-July. I chose Health IT over the Medical Assistant course because I have this slight fear of the gooey, nasty red stuff that comes out of human bodies. *cringe*
I was so ready to go back, SO READY!
I had all the paper work done, all my tests taken (which I had graded above average), and signed a contract all within a week.
I need structure in my life.
I needed to find something more stable to rely on and my high school diploma just wasn’t doing the job anymore.
And up to it, I had every sign to show me it was the right choice.
So I started up on learning my medical terminology & I watched every episode of Grey’s Anatomy writing down the conditions to quiz myself and learn about the crazy wonders of the medical world.
I wanted this!
And then, I got a call that the class I was supposed to be in was cancelled.
And I couldn’t rebound.
Actually, I’m still in the funk and don’t know what to do.
The next available class starts in November. You know, the month when the holiday season starts. Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years… the time when life is crazy.
How am I supposed to just abruptly start school mid-November. It’s gonna throw my mind all out of whack.
I’m trying to convince myself that this is still a good idea, I really am… but really, all I can think is where are my signs?
Where’s my sign to show me that this is the right thing to do still.
Because I don’t know if it is anymore and it’s really starting to get to me.